Just Hilly

Today at my college they held a 'Take Back the Night' event that was about highlighting the voices and experiences of sexual assault victims, promoting the importance of consent and the different resources available to anyone going through interpersonal violence, sexual harassment etc. As a small opener they had students write messages to anyone struggling with their experiences, to uplift, spread awareness or positivity. I chose to make my message about coercion, albeit I did misspell the word lml.  "A 'YES' AFTER 10 'NO's IS A NO!  #stopcoercion' I am unfortunately one of billions of victims of various forms sexual harassment and sexual assault but one of the seemingly 'lesser' overlooked forms is coercion. It can look like your partner begging you throughout your evening to have sex, possibly throwing in some guilt tripping, maybe blackmail, even potentially leaving without a ride in somewhere unfamiliar or threats of bodily harm etc. Your in...

To walk into a room, a space, and find yourself being examined Every detail of your countenance being microscopically observed Studied, picked apart and concluded on- A black person disallowed from individuality & personhood. The laughing group of black people in a public space- the stares, The murmurs, the sighs- the disapproval of black joy How dare they make noise? How dare they be loud? The censorship of black hair, black attitude, black perspective, black ingenuity-  BLACK BODIES We can find ourselves policed everywhere for not following guidelines that were never truly handed to us on a personal level- a broad stroke of social rules to follow We must remember that when we empower ourselves, as a race of people, we must not forget to grant each other personhood- a leave from this job we are tasked with in our day to day. See each other not through their eyes but our own- see the individual and FORCE others to see the individual as well For we will never be free of this rol...

In its most simple definition, a name is an identifier. Names are often one of the first pieces of information you can learn about another, a label to match a face- another conscious being. Historically, names carried weight depending on things like your family’s prestige or class, any trades passed on from father to son, one great ancestor who did something revolutionary or tied to a certain ethnic group/region of people. In recent history and modern society, a name can still be tied to prestige as well as socioeconomic status, ethnicity and gender identity (or lack thereof). Both historically and in present times, a name has been closely tied with different aspects of one’s life journey that influence the paths they take; and while it may not be the only factor molding a person into who they are- a name plays a role in who they become.  Traditionally, names (specifically last names) held the purpose of identifying a group of people, whether a clan, a royal lineage, tradesman etc....

So I FINALLY got to see Barbie yesterday and it was so much more than I expected. With all the snippets and posts I had seen these past 2 weeks online about the movie, I had prepared myself for a more girl power, tween-ish feel for the movie. Instead, I was surprised by ever changing metaphors for womanhood, navigating society through the lenses of male and female, mother-daughter relationship woes, the importance setting boundaries along with insurrection and patriarchy. It felt like half a fun kids movie half eighth grade English class with all the symbolism, juxtaposition and satire. The colors, dance numbers, fun outfits and the vast array of Barbies (and Kens) in the movie made for a fun visual experience. I ended up being one of many movie goer's who left singing 'I'm Just Ken' by Ryan Gosling (stereotypical Ken) when leaving the theater. I felt the movie was well casted and everyone played their parts very well. I would say whoever thought to make Will Ferrell pl...

 Lol so it's about to be summer and I haven't posted a damn thing. Why you may ask? Well life has been kicking my ass. This past spring was a rough semester (ya girl passed everything tho (⁠｡⁠•̀⁠ᴗ⁠-⁠)⁠✧ ), family issues, health issues, quit my job, got a new job, relationship struggles etc etc etc Things are somewhat looking up however and I've been more active with my art. I've been even doing commissions... Who'd a thunk? Lml but just taking it one day at a time and with that trying to revive my little blog here.  So Happy New Year, Valentines, EID, Easter, and HAPPY PRIDE to all my fellow queers 🌈🌈🌈🌈 P.S. new gender identity just dropped so I made a meme (Debby Ryan hair tuck) same pronouns as before tho: she/they. But yeah demi girl... Not me having a micro label (⁠ ⁠´⁠◡⁠‿⁠ゝ⁠◡⁠`⁠)  Toodles for now loves 

With roughly three and a half weeks left in this semester, I'm both excited and terrified for final grades to come out. I definitely missed my fair share of lectures because of my health issues so my test scores haven't been fantastic. However, most of my classes this year have written papers and presentations making up a huge chunk of my final scores. My disability accommodations have come in clutch for when I needed flexible deadlines for school, I'm super grateful that my school offers that and has a supportive and efficient disability services department.  Wishing all the best to anyone else on their home stretch, school wise and in general. 2022 is coming to a close and hopefully we all accomplish what we can and plan for success in the new year.

So I’m going back to school after taking a year off and I’m both anxious and excited. After my sophomore year ended poorly because of lockdown related mental health issues among other reasons I decided to do something else. Did some research and went to a healthcare career trade school and completed a 9 month long Clinical Medical Assistant program. Leave it to me to go to school on my gap year from school lol. Of course while working partime 😅 because I NEEDED  to get out the house. The isolation after being sent home sucked ass. Now that restrictions have been lifted, and in person classes have resumed, I figured it was time to go back and finish my bachelors. I’m a Nutrition Science major and I’m taking mostly major related upper level classes and one Sociology course; I’m minoring in Sociology at the moment- unsure if I want to make it a second major instead. Online school tanked my confidence as a student and this semester is going to be me proving to myself (and others) that...